understand your soulz

The new normal way of life and business has changed for the better since Singapore's Circuit Breaker. I find time to workout regularly, time for books and better planning.  The downside, more work as calls can be back to back, meetings can be so adhoc. No travelling needed means meetings can be packed so closely than drinking water proves challenging.  Since breakfast, lunch and dinner had to be in-house, food planning is now one of the main activities.  Meeting with friends, relatives, colleagues has never been more virtual.  But I actually quite like the new change.  The earth becomes cleaner. Skies become clearer, less cars, less flights, less human intervention, Mother Nature helps to revive our Earth. Better air, less natural disaster, less food wastage (I hope).  Are humans the root of Earth's Destruction?  Is this pandemic created by Mother Nature as a warning? Are humans evolving for the better? Welcome to the NEW WORLD. 

i have always wonder about meditation since young age... probably i am interested in the unknown like UFO, Yeti, Loch Ness... Meditation, how boring as many will felt it... "just seating there do nothing, i dont have the patience"... i have been seeing different articles on this topic. meditation can be practise at any place, anytime. it doesnt have to be long... give yourself 5 to 10mins.... i hope to do longer than that... heard the other benefit is spontaneous fasting... better focus or attention. the 3 methods that i have tested (all seated with legs crossed, shoulders relaxed on floor or sofa, eyes closed): 1) focus on a light in the darkness. 2) focus on your breathing, just the entry and exit point.. 3) keep repeating a word or few words. Yet to try method on meditation - near death experience... how to do that?! It's a weird process but ... i have seen only 4 visions thru countless times of meditation... and the end result is always the relaxed and c...

for serving 10 years in the army, you get Hamilton watch with your name engraved. unique and true exclusivity to me (prior to this, i wanted to sell it if there is no engraving *sigh* ). i have 2 of these medals for being the best NS Unit. (Should we have 6 medals? see these reasons .) of course, the most important award is the MR letter to inform me that i am no longer under Mindef Notification Centre, no more IPPT and mobilisation.

21 Mar 2009 really marked the end of my Army career... or it is not? 1) the day of my reservist unit, 596 SIR stand down; 2) the day that we received Hamilton watch for our 10 years of service; 3) the day (although 31 March 2009 is the official MR) that i belonged to Mindef Reserve (MR); 4) the day that i can really 'hung' up all the camouflage uniform, SBO, helmet, full pack, black duffel bag, boots, all the mobilisation packs; i will miss the reservist days of crazy jokes between commanders and men, the special English language that we converse in, the Big 2 game (including climbing the stairs to buy drinks), hadoken thru PSP, brotherhood of men and among us (commanders namely Seah K P, Tong W M, Seow L B, Ang W S... of course, our ex-PC Chua T W)... and Lao Da (Tan W B), ex-6SIR. Photos of this event. 596 SIR stand down parade was held at Army Museum (beside Singapore Discovery Centre) at 7pm 21 Mar 2009... we had our last march in (in front of the spectators of family memb...

My primary school days was from 1981 to 1986... easy to remember. Second part of this segment is to really seek old frens... before my memory fails. Boys: Wei Huanbo, Fuyu, Xu Shunxing, Chen Jinshun, Chen Kexun and many many more etc. Girls: Pan Xiuqing, Chen Qingping, Bai Liyun, Chen Jingjing, Chen Sumei, Ke Caixia, Shufang, etc. Got to see the Pri 6 farewell book... i vaguely remember my classes but i think they were 1A, 2A, 3A, 4N1, 5N1 and 6N1... Mr Lim, our form teacher during P6... super strict but really good in English studies... how strict?! he did not allow any students to cross legs during lessons or your table would be 'your standing ground'... not because of vengence... there was this Chinese teacher during my P3 who gave me a tight slap on my face... becos i was mischievious... all my siblings went thru Bukit Ho Swee Primary... i could still see my younger bro being bullied by his peers (mostly girls) during his P1 from underneath the classroom partition.. :P

'both' of my primary schools were within walking distance from my home in Bukit Ho Swee. first was Bukit Ho Swee East Primary School.. white top and brown shorts... we shared the same school compound with 'rival' Bukit Ho Swee West Primary School... one of my old neighbours, Johnson Lim was from there. what's the rivalry about? we used to challenge them in one of the oldest sports in school, one-leg... East meets West, boys vs boys, girls vs girls... before school starts... at least once or twice a week. in those days, i was one of those 'top 10' one-legged players... playing and 'working' not just in the game but 'organising' which players to go first and who's next... fun fun and still fun. irony 1: i was not allowed to take PE lessons (physical education) but i still played one-leg in school . shhh... and damn good... since i couldn't take physical training, i joined Chess Club and learnt both English and Chinese Chess, challenging...

school days took up a quarter of our life... some longer some shorter... i can remember the early days in Kindergarten... it was a PAP Kindergarten at Beo Crescent Blk 36 (now Singapore Pools)... 2 years of my childhood were spent there... the standard PAP uniform of red and blue... the cute little boy carrying a luggage-liked bag (red and black checkered) waiting diligently at 1.45pm outside the school... Kindergarten's timing was 2pm to 4pm... that's me. i was already independent at that age (i think 5 or 6)... going to and coming back from Kindergarten alone... though my house was near but it was at least 2 blocks away... 1.30pm, i would start to prepare for school... wearing school uniform... reading and learning last minute's spelling test... getting mum to test me on the spelling...mum hardly knew the English spelling and i had to tell her the pronounciation :)... everything was settled within the few minutes and off... to school... though the long stairways from Buki...

i remembered the first car that i drove was a old Honda Civic, the squarish backlight type... i did not have a Class 3 driving license during this drive... not illegal, this was my instructor's car. Failed once but quickly got 12 points for the second one... it was 1997, forgotten the date but i knew that it is one day before Chinese New Year's Eve... the tester should be in a CNY mood and passed me pretty fast... my first possession of car... right after my customary wedding in Dec 2000... a red 9-years 9-months old Hyundai Elantra, some SBC plate that i don't remember. got the first mini-accident at AYE, kana the back portion of a taxi driver. no injury, no visible damage to his taxi but paid 50bucks to settle... the Hyundai died on me along Clementi towards Ngee Ann poly...anyway, this was a soon-to-be-scrapped car (3 to 4 months before expiry). second car was a red Charade, old old 19-years old... NO POWER STEERING, really sweat when steering in stationary position or p...

may 11, 2003... a day that i remembered.. we were celebrating mothers' day with mum, dad and my siblings (usual like any others)... it is the last family celebration with my mum. (not sure why i remembered this day, probably my birthday which was the following day). mum told us that she was going to see specialist at Alexandra Hospital the following week... i always felt closer to her than my siblings since young. i could sense that she always took special care of me... maybe i was the one that was always sick (suffering asthma attacks), getting most sprains, most cuts and most playful... the weakest in health. ---- during primary 3, i recalled that i was hospitalised (almost dead) because of asthma attacks. she would stay with me through the few nights, taking intense care of me. she would piggy-back me around. ---- although she would nag, shout and scold, and at times, i find her annoying... i really miss her voice now. Aug 12, 2003 around 3am, my wife and i woke up together... i...