understand your soulz

Complex personality or contradicting personality? Lazy or smart?  I hate routine but at the same time, too lazy to think of next steps sometimes. I can clear work tasks pretty fast but many would think that I am too idle. I simply does not like to leave tasks pending. I want a slower pace in life but can I really manage the slower pace?  I might not be liked my girls who can multitasks but I believe I did it during my teenager years without the smartphone. Watching TV and studying for exams are concurrent. Luckily TV programs were not running 24 hours then. I would search the 8 Days magazine on the TV schedule,  then plan for which cartoons to watch early morning till night. Those yesterday's cartoons has evolved to today's anime. Even my wife or kids think that anime is a waste of time. I am by nature, lazy. If I have a task, I will find the fastest or easiest way to get the result. My grade may not be the best but the effort justify for it. Remembering in my poly days, ...

There are roles in the society that we played, e.g. Worker, boss, son, father, husband, associate, colleague, best fren, casual fren, lover, etc. With these amount of roles, can you still be the same single person that u think u are?  Unconsciously, we might portray different personalities for these different roles.  At least from what i know, each of us has at least 3 personalities.... One that u are born with. One that u think u are. One that others thought of you as... So if u are telling me that u have only one personality, u know u are lying.  Ironically, as we are trying to be truthful and honest to others, sometimes it will hurt many other parties... Therefore we chose the most rational way even though it is not what we wanted. Whichever role and personality that we took on, please pay it forward... I still believe in KARMA. Unless we are ready to devoid all our feelings and attachments to the rest of the world and people, we can never be the single, simple-minded ...