understand your soulz

Its been a while since I wrote and positive and negative energy. I thought I had past the stage of identifying the negative energy from work. It seems like it is also coming from my existing relationship.  Positive energy: - lunch with vendor was a great catch up.  - work has been distributed to the inside sales team.  - Walk around the bay helps to clear the head.  Negative energy: - sore throat is back 😫. Did I not take care of myself good enough? - relationships are painful.  Quote: our kokoro will guide us to do things that we liked. Heed it. 

Positive energy:  - meeting with people and discussing businesses is fun.  - kok seng food is above average. Fish soup is surprisingly delicious.  - byd cafe zhongshan , fantastic chill place.  Negative energy: - working on tender with stupid timeline is really killing.  - no energy to run after late sleep due to ... - still cannot resolve my situation... too draining.  Quote: we can do what we want to do. But we choose what we had to do. 

Positive energy:  - catching up with an old fren and was able to advise 😌  - asking for sabbatical leave and getting ready to leave work.  Negative energy: - fml. Why does life always have to make it harder when u made up your mind? - how lost can I be? Why did I flare up? Quote: you have to be firm sometimes to get things done.  

Positive energy:  - finally get to taste casa vostra pizza and pasta. Not bad with the shorter queue.  - good lunch with colleagues - finally embarking on my solo trip soon, asking for sabbatical leave.  Negative energy: - why is my mind/body resisting ... - supposed to be a good walk but felt breathless and too bloated. Is it haze and dinner? Quote: I cannot get away from time is existence. Living in the present builds your future. 

Positive energy:  - great dinner at 巴蜀 - morning cycle came again! Yeah! Negative energy:  - am i heartless?  - I wanna break everything that I ever built and leave this place.  Wtf.  Quote: a crazy person still look normal in every aspects. 

Positive energy:  - completed Squid Game season 3. Yeah!  But the ending is lame.   - a good walk to Maxwell market and Tiong Bahru.  - uploaded a property for sale. Waiting for more to come.  Negative energy:  - dinner 天外天 was too full. Made me having headache and bloated.  - can I sustain without a full time job? Quote: sleeping and waking naturally is a luxury.   

Positive energy:  - felt good when I told boss that I am sick of sales and could quit if no job.  - squid game final season binge. It was better than season first half. Gna finished tomorrow.  Negative energy:  - unmotivated to follow up with deals.  - unmotivated by the 9 to 5 commission. Lol. Thought money is still needed.  Quote: sometimes, quitting is liberation. 

Positive energy: - catching up with vendor sales and having good chat -  catching up with colleagues and ex boss for dinner Negative energy:  - email already makes me nauseous.  - when colleague is low in morale.  - the lousy beer from dinner.  Quote: we are time. We build the present and the future. The past is what you build for the present. No point dwelling on the past. 

Positive energy:  - realised that sabbatical leave is what I wanted. Have to try nego with bosses. - went for cycling, it was so free.  - kokoro is so good. Time is existence. So true and profound.  Negative energy:  - skipping all the sales related info from work. Drained.  Quote: we are time. 

Positive energy:  - love the conversation with partners (lunch and dinner) - lunch at Martina's was above average, full. Dinner at 天外天 was good too (treat by partner) - happy that business partners maintain their support for my solution.   Negative energy:  - not motivated to find new partners or sales - doesn't feel like exercising  Quote: life is out to test you in all aspects. Life is a witch. 

Positive energy:  - things at work are more or less settled - good lunch of unagi at unatoto.  - Had a short nap to recharge.  - completed 'Forget You Not' , only can rate 5/5.  Am I the dad in the show?  Negative energy:  - fuck. Still couldn't get over the argument the night before.  Mood bad.  - doesn't even wanna jog.  Quote: Start living. 

Positive energy:  - good exercise.  - eat famous 碗kueh at Chinatown market - catching taiwan drama 'Forget You Not'. Slow start but closed to heart.  Negative energy:  - I simply flared up when my partner stopped me from my solo trip.   - my mood is swinging at home.  Quote: You will forget as times go by.  Nothing to cry about. 

Positive energy: - had a good discovery with chatgpt. Found out thag I could be burnt out. Great, I rem my last was during securecraft days.  - I hope to embark on a Do Nothing Traveler service.  Make it happen! Negative energy:  - doesn't feel like exercising. Wtf.   - felt caged in current situation.  Quote: the end is just the beginning.  

Positive energy:  - I still like mentoring and planning - a short jog revived me.  Negative energy:  - I still loaf sales and execution.  - I am still not into relationship with strings attached.  Quote: should I take sabbatical or resign ?

Positive energy:  - help provide long term solution to solve fren money problem - catching up with colleagues.  - me time to help others.  - love mentoring anyone who wanted to learn.  Negative energy:  - couldn't solve my fren financial problem immediately  - still not motivated to boost sales. Is it becos of this job? Can I change my role? Quote: passed on your positive skills. Ignore naysayers.  

Positive energy:  - kokoro book chapter 1 is already enlightening  - news that Thales is appointing PT as 3rd disti is heartening.  - catching up with vendor is great.  Negative energy:  - back to office and fell sick.  - flu came back. 🤧  Quote: is it worth it when it is groundhog?

Positive energy:  - cleared all my commit and upside for June!!! Yeah!!! - did 2 consecutive jogs and feeling great! A bit tired. Negative energy:  - the sales meeting was too much and draining.  - I wanna drop CF tasks.  - my cough was gone but stupid flu came on. Wtf.  Quote: there is no midlife, we cannot predict our life expectancy. Move on now!!!

Positive energy:  - my new job as a Do Nothing Rental Traveller. (Inspired by Do Nothing Rental Person) - scbd Korean food on Oyster soontofu was great. Kemin Plaza Singapura food was good.  - completed the Do Nothing Rental Person book.   - saw the fireworks.  Negative energy:  - not wanting to do any work related stuff like filling in CEA form. Wtf.  - hopefully my cough could be cleared (90% recovered)  

Positive energy: - cleared a tender quote - meeting up with colleagues for chat - dinner food was quite good and with live band was relaxing - loved karaoke if I didnt lose my voice.   - cough and phlegm was gone after a coke!  Negative energy:  - the stupid commission letter was not retracted.  - lunch food was filling but average - doing pipeline report for Monday. Kanz.  Quote: live like a baby. Do not be tied up by adult values. 

Positive energy:  - reading the do nothing rental person book inspires me to become a do nothing travel person.  Why must we be so stressed on where to go ? - the fruit farm walk tour was great. - super lobster restaurant food, e.g. lobster porridge was fantastic, the lobster noodle was salty. Overall still great food! Negative energy: - my stupid cough has been plaguing me for the longest time. 😒  - the sickness has affected my mood, eating , etc. Is it a sign? Quote: you never know why you will be sick or healthy , so why wait ?