understand your soulz

I have never saw Tenet until very recently since it's released in early 2021.  The storyline was what I have written in my blog "The Sequence is Not Important"  dated 31 May 2020. <Spoiler Alert> Extract of what I have written:  "Are we living the past that the future is already written?  What if we are born for a mission? and what if death is a sign that our mission is accomplished?" Eerie, watch the movie if you have not.  Are we really living in the past where the future is already written?  Sounds demoralizing or sounds exciting? It is about your perspective on how you treat your life, your friends, the Earth, your thoughts, etc.  as my blog says: " life is about work, work and work. what's the actual meaning of life vs work and yourself vs family? "

 I always felt that my life experiences are in phases.  Moving on from childhood friends to secondary friends to gaming friends, poly friends to army kakis and working colleagues. These friends never stick with me for long, only a limited handful, that's my life I presume. With each phase, friends come and go. I don't really have strong attachment or close relationship with most of them. Maybe to them, I appeared snobbish, cold and too intelligent to joke around. Only the close few that knew me, knew me.  I like to observe, I can be alone and does things alone. That's probably why my circle of friends are small and smaller than most people.  But have you ever wondered? Whenever your friend 'leave' you in that stage of life, someone would take over his/her place. The amount of people that you are allowed to 'hold on' to, it seems fixed. It could even be the case when you get to know a new friend, somehow you will find another 'missing'. Is it because ...