understand your soulz

Yesterday, I guessed my family was 'crazy', playing Marvel Endgame at almost 12 midnight. My third time watching, my eldest first time.  Finishing the movie close to 3am was no joke.   It could be my age catching up. The same 2 scenes always brought tears to my eyes. The laughter, the script to bring back memories of Marvel Characters, the emotion part, etc. Other than these scenes, I get especially emotion when spidey appears, followed by the troops for the big attack. It is such a scene, the cast of all female superheroes, the unbeatable Thanos, and Mr Stark.  Watching this show still gives me the chills, exhilaration,  tears and joy, and it completes the first chapter of Marvel Universe Saga.  There aren't many movies that can match this standard.  Maybe it is family time and bonding period or maybe it is the home setting but the feeling was great.  MCU keep it up!

The situation doesn't seem to be curb. Instead,  it is spreading from Changi ) supposed to be the biggest cluster)  to wild wild West, heard JEM and West Gate took over at the leading cluster.  I was at a park this morning and the crowd is ridiculous. Do you really need to pack and eat at there ? Can't you have your meal at home ? Still the same,  Wash your hands,  wear your mask and stopped eating outside at public areas.  Stay safe. Stay Healthy and stay home. 

Singapore went thru our next wave of Covid19 infections. Our of nowhere,  asymptomatic and infected cases appeared from Changi Airport, Tan Tock Seng Hospital and spreading like wildfire in the east. Children gotten infected at schools.  Our government made a swift decision to restrict social gathering to 2. No dine in.  PHASE 2 (Heightened Alert) kicked in 16 May till 13 Jun 2021. Home based learning became another reality on 19 May.  I kind of quite like this Circuit Breaker 1.5.  Not going back office though I am more busy then back in office. However, I gotten time to at least workout every morning.  The only thing I missed is... hmm, maybe meals with frens and families. But I can live with it. Welcome to new normal or have we already set in.  Don't expect covid19 to be eradicated. Get vaccinated and treat it like a flu soon. 

The best present I gave to myself today. The 2nd dose of covid19 vaccination. Moderna.  Early morning 8am Queue. 843am discharged.  By afternoon, booked a hotel to fully enjoy the rest.  Arm is totally sore at this point in writing. Hopefully it gets better.  But I heard Day 2 is the worst. Pray.  Closer to fighting the pandemic. Hope India and poorer countries get their dosage soon. 

A 2009 post when back from USA.... supposed to publish then.  this should be our mentality .. mentality of all singaporeans. back from USA closed to 2 months and i am still 'enjoyed' that place... - weekend is really weekend... most of the car park lots at the city are FREE! - traffic is hardly a problem during weekend... most people walk or cycle to enjoy the day... - some booklets and mag are free and no one do not take excessively. - there are few rubbish bins and you can hardly see litters. - respect for elders and physically impaired. - restaurant food and fast food prices are high but the service standard are equally high.

https://www-nytimes-com.cdn.ampproject.org/c/s/www.nytimes.com/2021/04/19/well/mind/covid-mental-health-languishing.amp.html " Languishing is a sense of stagnation and emptiness. It feels as if you’re muddling through your days, looking at your life through a foggy windshield." This is really what I have been experiencing for the longest time since covid19 circuit breaker started. Nearing the edge of depression but not yet. Mood-less, target-less, laziness, zero motivation... not focus and just living by the day.  NOTHING can keep me motivated.  Even the drive becomes drive-less (not EV)... $$$ doesn't seem to move me... maybe a million dollars does so that I don't need to work and really daze all day.  To be back of track is to have a 'target' to look forward too. I can't even be bothered with setting a target now. What shit! Am I really heading for depression soon? Will even a sane mind wrote about this blog? Does keeping myself busy help? Being busy def