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after 7 days with my two girls, my wife is going to be back from helsinki and copenhagen in another 15 hours... i miss her actually.

may 11, 2003... a day that i remembered.. we were celebrating mothers' day with mum, dad and my siblings (usual like any others)... it is the last family celebration with my mum. (not sure why i remembered this day, probably my birthday which was the following day). mum told us that she was going to see specialist at Alexandra Hospital the following week... i always felt closer to her than my siblings since young. i could sense that she always took special care of me... maybe i was the one that was always sick (suffering asthma attacks), getting most sprains, most cuts and most playful... the weakest in health. ---- during primary 3, i recalled that i was hospitalised (almost dead) because of asthma attacks. she would stay with me through the few nights, taking intense care of me. she would piggy-back me around. ---- although she would nag, shout and scold, and at times, i find her annoying... i really miss her voice now. Aug 12, 2003 around 3am, my wife and i woke up together... i

华文, 英文, 华语, 英语... 不知何时...我爱上华文... 因该是漫画的影响...真的有点后悔...GCE 'O' B3 for Chinese Language...not A1, comics should come earlier...not after 'O' level. 现在都是抱着华文书...又睡着了...

i have been doing a lot of thinking lately... fm100.3 'hit' it this morning after reading this verse from one article. 当我老了，不再是原来的我.请理解我，对我有一点耐心。 当我把菜汤洒在自己衣服上时，当我忘记怎样系鞋带时，请想一想当初我是如何手把手地教你。 当我一遍又一遍地重复你早已听腻的话语时，请耐心地听我说，不要打断我。你小的时候，我不得不重复那个讲过千百遍的故事，直到你进入梦乡。 当我需要你帮我洗澡时，请不要责备我。还记得小时候我千方百计哄你洗澡的情形吗？ 当我对新科技和新事物不知所措时，请不要嘲笑我。想一想当初我怎样耐心地回答你的每一个“为什么”。 当我由于双腿疲劳而无法行走时，请伸出你年轻有力的手搀扶我。就像你小时候学习走路时，我扶你那样。 当我忽然忘记我们谈话的主题，请给我一些时间让我回想。其实对我来说，谈论什么并不重要，只要你能在一旁听我说，我就很满足。 当你看着老去的我，请不要悲伤。理解我，支持我，就像你刚开始学习如何面对生活时我对你那样。当初我引导你走上人生路，如今请陪伴我走完最后的路。给我你的爱和耐心，我会报以感激的微笑，这微笑中凝结着我对你无限的爱。 摘自《参考消息》 哭吧...心情会好些...

my wife was telling me about her fren's baby today... the pain struck my heart immediately... then she showed her fren's blog ... i felt that i have to gather all the prayers and all the knowledge required to help this baby... what will i do if i am in her position? please please.... there must be someone that has the answers...

the short 8 days high-key reservist really flies... nothing much except for a really slow and 'problematic' combat live firing... suppose to end 11pm, it ended at 2am... gotten my migraine twice in-camp...how great...failed IPPT as usual. the twist is really a 'twist'... i mean a sprain on the neck since last friday... just saw a doc today... next year will be my last in-camp... counting down to August 2008... 0808...

tomorrow will mark my 9th year serving the nation since my ORD on 29 Jan 1997... how time flies... i look forward to this once in a year (or maybe twice or thrice) gathering with our buddies... minus the IPPT, every other thing is great... 1) you get the feeling of brotherhood (once in a year fren is like long-lost fren); 2) your mind is 'switch off'. you are no longer the 'boss' of your company; 3) you learn and polish on BIG2 skills; 4) you sweat more than usual and swear more than usual; 5) you sleep much earlier than usual but get up much earlier too; 6) you change the army uniform only when you booked out; 7) you can take naps in afternoon; 8) you can sleep anywhere and sh*t anywhere in green; 9) you get meal (upgraded to set meal) free, comes with 3 dishes, soup, fruits (and maybe ice-cream) and; 10) you see all walks of life here... the same old keng king, sabo king, xiao-on king, etc. soon this will be over (another year) and i hope we strengthen this brotherhoo