understand your soulz

Positive energy:  - great dinner at 巴蜀 - morning cycle came again! Yeah! Negative energy:  - am i heartless?  - I wanna break everything that I ever built and leave this place.  Wtf.  Quote: a crazy person still look normal in every aspects. 

Positive energy:  - completed Squid Game season 3. Yeah!  But the ending is lame.   - a good walk to Maxwell market and Tiong Bahru.  - uploaded a property for sale. Waiting for more to come.  Negative energy:  - dinner 天外天 was too full. Made me having headache and bloated.  - can I sustain without a full time job? Quote: sleeping and waking naturally is a luxury.   

Positive energy:  - felt good when I told boss that I am sick of sales and could quit if no job.  - squid game final season binge. It was better than season first half. Gna finished tomorrow.  Negative energy:  - unmotivated to follow up with deals.  - unmotivated by the 9 to 5 commission. Lol. Thought money is still needed.  Quote: sometimes, quitting is liberation. 

Positive energy: - catching up with vendor sales and having good chat -  catching up with colleagues and ex boss for dinner Negative energy:  - email already makes me nauseous.  - when colleague is low in morale.  - the lousy beer from dinner.  Quote: we are time. We build the present and the future. The past is what you build for the present. No point dwelling on the past. 

Positive energy:  - realised that sabbatical leave is what I wanted. Have to try nego with bosses. - went for cycling, it was so free.  - kokoro is so good. Time is existence. So true and profound.  Negative energy:  - skipping all the sales related info from work. Drained.  Quote: we are time. 

Positive energy:  - love the conversation with partners (lunch and dinner) - lunch at Martina's was above average, full. Dinner at 天外天 was good too (treat by partner) - happy that business partners maintain their support for my solution.   Negative energy:  - not motivated to find new partners or sales - doesn't feel like exercising  Quote: life is out to test you in all aspects. Life is a witch. 

Positive energy:  - things at work are more or less settled - good lunch of unagi at unatoto.  - Had a short nap to recharge.  - completed 'Forget You Not' , only can rate 5/5.  Am I the dad in the show?  Negative energy:  - fuck. Still couldn't get over the argument the night before.  Mood bad.  - doesn't even wanna jog.  Quote: Start living. 

Positive energy:  - good exercise.  - eat famous 碗kueh at Chinatown market - catching taiwan drama 'Forget You Not'. Slow start but closed to heart.  Negative energy:  - I simply flared up when my partner stopped me from my solo trip.   - my mood is swinging at home.  Quote: You will forget as times go by.  Nothing to cry about. 

Positive energy: - had a good discovery with chatgpt. Found out thag I could be burnt out. Great, I rem my last was during securecraft days.  - I hope to embark on a Do Nothing Traveler service.  Make it happen! Negative energy:  - doesn't feel like exercising. Wtf.   - felt caged in current situation.  Quote: the end is just the beginning.  

Positive energy:  - I still like mentoring and planning - a short jog revived me.  Negative energy:  - I still loaf sales and execution.  - I am still not into relationship with strings attached.  Quote: should I take sabbatical or resign ?

Positive energy:  - help provide long term solution to solve fren money problem - catching up with colleagues.  - me time to help others.  - love mentoring anyone who wanted to learn.  Negative energy:  - couldn't solve my fren financial problem immediately  - still not motivated to boost sales. Is it becos of this job? Can I change my role? Quote: passed on your positive skills. Ignore naysayers.  

Positive energy:  - catching up with colleagues and helping in planning - able to walk, exercise and eat on my own. (Though I have to start watching my cholesterol)  Negative energy:  - the unmotivated feeling on work still lingers. Wtf.  - energy is low to exercise.  - the feeling of leaving.  Quote: work vs living is a paradox. 

Positive energy:  - kokoro book chapter 1 is already enlightening  - news that Thales is appointing PT as 3rd disti is heartening.  - catching up with vendor is great.  Negative energy:  - back to office and fell sick.  - flu came back. 🤧  Quote: is it worth it when it is groundhog?

Positive energy:  - cleared all my commit and upside for June!!! Yeah!!! - did 2 consecutive jogs and feeling great! A bit tired. Negative energy:  - the sales meeting was too much and draining.  - I wanna drop CF tasks.  - my cough was gone but stupid flu came on. Wtf.  Quote: there is no midlife, we cannot predict our life expectancy. Move on now!!!

Positive energy: - the more I run , the lesser my sickness - I think a Do Nothing Rental Traveller is feasible.  - great to catch up with Dad and bro and loved ones - chick n lobs is the best value lobster place in SG.  Good food and value for money.  Negative energy: - Although I see more sales coming in, I am not particularly motivated in this current place. Though I loved this batch of colleagues.  - thinking of mid month sales meeting is already draining. Am I to give up a not bad paying job ? Quote: is it still worth it if you are not motivated ? 

Positive energy:  - my new job as a Do Nothing Rental Traveller. (Inspired by Do Nothing Rental Person) - scbd Korean food on Oyster soontofu was great. Kemin Plaza Singapura food was good.  - completed the Do Nothing Rental Person book.   - saw the fireworks.  Negative energy:  - not wanting to do any work related stuff like filling in CEA form. Wtf.  - hopefully my cough could be cleared (90% recovered)  

Positive energy: - cleared a tender quote - meeting up with colleagues for chat - dinner food was quite good and with live band was relaxing - loved karaoke if I didnt lose my voice.   - cough and phlegm was gone after a coke!  Negative energy:  - the stupid commission letter was not retracted.  - lunch food was filling but average - doing pipeline report for Monday. Kanz.  Quote: live like a baby. Do not be tied up by adult values. 

Positive energy:  - reading the do nothing rental person book inspires me to become a do nothing travel person.  Why must we be so stressed on where to go ? - the fruit farm walk tour was great. - super lobster restaurant food, e.g. lobster porridge was fantastic, the lobster noodle was salty. Overall still great food! Negative energy: - my stupid cough has been plaguing me for the longest time. 😒  - the sickness has affected my mood, eating , etc. Is it a sign? Quote: you never know why you will be sick or healthy , so why wait ? 

Positive energy:  - first time to Desaru.  - lotus desaru was quite dated but it has all the facilities needed and within budget.  Negative energy:  - saw office pending work.  Quote: the world is too big to leave it at a later time.  

Positive energy:  - free bak chang from partner event. Good chat with a partner.  - cleared backlog and new boss has been helpful.  - got few more oppty coming.  Negative energy:  - the no recognition and low margin announcement is here to stay. Fml.  - cough still persist when didnt take meds.  - still cannot jog.  Quote: mind over matters can only happen when it matters. 

Positive energy:  - signs of recovery.  - unexpected oppty came in. Seems like not going to office brought me more deals.  Negative energy:  - sore throat surfaced after coughing. Went to doctor.  - the meds really KO-ed me.  Quote: health is no 1 priorty in your whole life. 

Positive energy: - great lunch with colleagues Negative energy: - the sales meeting with no conclusion on margin and recognition.  - Sales meeting was too long with all the crowd.  - coughing and coughing and couldn't go for jog.  Quote: vibes determine your health. 

Positive energy:  - dinner with family and siblings is da best! - Walk to eat prata, the exercise i needed to destress. - the library is simply a wonderful place to chill  Negative energy: - unable to jog becos of knee pain  - my longing to go solo is still lingering. Give me energy to start pls.  Quote: eliminate what you don't like to do what you like. 

Positive energy:  - gathering with colleagues and ex-colleagues for chat - good lunch with vendors - good catch up with ex boss Negative energy:  - the company whatsapp sent by MD. How stupid ?! Spoilt the mood and motivation of sales.  Quote: recharge with people is needed even when there is no solution. 

Positive energy: - get to sleep better though having headache from drinks  - settled inventory handover for a unit Negative energy:  - disagreement on mutual agreement with conditions. I am so tired 😫  - my heart is gone.  - unmotivated in relationships  Quote: follow that first instinct. It is not rash decision.