understand your soulz

Positive energy: - the more I run , the lesser my sickness - I think a Do Nothing Rental Traveller is feasible.  - great to catch up with Dad and bro and loved ones - chick n lobs is the best value lobster place in SG.  Good food and value for money.  Negative energy: - Although I see more sales coming in, I am not particularly motivated in this current place. Though I loved this batch of colleagues.  - thinking of mid month sales meeting is already draining. Am I to give up a not bad paying job ? Quote: is it still worth it if you are not motivated ? 

Positive energy:  - dinner with family and siblings is da best! - Walk to eat prata, the exercise i needed to destress. - the library is simply a wonderful place to chill  Negative energy: - unable to jog becos of knee pain  - my longing to go solo is still lingering. Give me energy to start pls.  Quote: eliminate what you don't like to do what you like. 

Positive energy: - I am not taking additional product on existing work - a bigger oppty came  - nieces came and enjoy a good dinner + desserts Negative energy:  - going back office.  - doing quotations. Still work related. Omg. 

Positive energy:  - I didn't spend a dime.  - celebrate my birthday and well wishes from many friends.  - spend time with my sibs and family.  Negative energy:  - not enough good sleep.  - sore throat and cough is back. Shit.  - my current situation socks.

Yesterday, I guessed my family was 'crazy', playing Marvel Endgame at almost 12 midnight. My third time watching, my eldest first time.  Finishing the movie close to 3am was no joke.   It could be my age catching up. The same 2 scenes always brought tears to my eyes. The laughter, the script to bring back memories of Marvel Characters, the emotion part, etc. Other than these scenes, I get especially emotion when spidey appears, followed by the troops for the big attack. It is such a scene, the cast of all female superheroes, the unbeatable Thanos, and Mr Stark.  Watching this show still gives me the chills, exhilaration,  tears and joy, and it completes the first chapter of Marvel Universe Saga.  There aren't many movies that can match this standard.  Maybe it is family time and bonding period or maybe it is the home setting but the feeling was great.  MCU keep it up!

A relationship requires the joint effort of two parties to maintain... Where is the trust if u need to constantly check on each other? At some point of the day, we need personal time, some required lesser time, some more. It doesnt mean that they need to do something... I will just sit and do some soul searching... You can call it daydream... Read this book recently, 5love languages... Every relationship whether it is with family, friends, couple should come with request, not demand... When u make a request, u give respect and confidence to other parties... When u make a demand out of the relationship, the other party's love jar is always empty.... No one likes to be commanded even between boss and staff... Practice making requests, and you can see yourself being happy when others are happy...

Every few years i would ponder on which direction / stages of life that i am in and i would like to achieve... This year is especially thought provoking... Having experienced these stages: 1) after studies, work /career 2) money money and money 3) family is all important 4) without health, all the above are nothingness... Soul searching led to TIME... Most of us have went thru the many life stages but have we given ourself TIME? Quote from CANDLE short film... Time is like a candle's flame, it is the minutes that we are burning... It is time to allocate YOUR TIME not others... Have you planned for it? How much time is left?

it's been a while since my wife and i last visited a cinema (without my girls)... this year is exception. we went thru a number of movies... X-Men Origins-Wolverine, Star Trek and Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen.. to name a few... watching a movie is always enjoyable with someone you loved... of course, the movies must be of certain acceptable standard for us to catch... Star Trek the movie: i had never been a fan... never caught any seasons ... the 2 things i know of Star Trek before watching... "beam me up" and Captain Spock (the guy with that pair of pointed ears)... Whether you are a fan or not, this is a must-see this year... if you miss it, own the DVD or Bluray... whatever... good effects, good plot, good mixture of race?! X-Men on Wolverine... ok or so-so... watch it only if you really want to know how Wolverine came about... not really required to know though... plot a bit lame. Transformers 2... my personal fav... nothing much abt plot... if you like the car...

GREAT... GOOD FEELING. that's my driving mileage in USA (13 Apr to 27 Apr 2009).. from touching down in San Francisco and off to Hertz... driving straight from the airport to next town, Watsonville... *knocked out* very soon (thanks to that JET-LAG). left-handed driving and speedometer in miles did not improve my understanding of US road conditions for 2 to 3 days.. especially turning right almost on the next road (can be on red light)... keeping to right side of the lane for slow coach (road hogger) like me during the first week... driving is a definite must to travel and enjoy the trip covering San Francisco (cooling weather but 'freezing winds' along coastal drive), LA (cooling weather) and Las Vegas (hot but dry) and back to SF (passing Yosemite with their snow)... 2 weeks was not enuff. Places visited (in chronological order): - Gilroy Premium Outlet - Coastal Drive along Highway 1 (from Monterey Bay to Hearst Castle) - Carmel by the Sea - Pismo Beach Premium Outlet (n...

first day of Chinese New Year (CNY) started on 26 Jan 2009... Monday. the usual visit to my dad's pl... a slight change of plan this year... visited my in-laws (photos) after dad's pl and then last stop at my grandma's, meeting up with my dad's side of extended family, cousins and aunties (about 30 odd)... the last stop always ended with setting up mini 'gambling' den... the big/small dice set that was given free with every new moon abalone purchased... i actually bought the abalone becos of this dice set... hahaha... day 1 ended around 2100hr for me... losing less than 10. day 2 CNY... visited my elder brother's place... all the kids were really busy playing at the double-decker bus bed... adults were busy with blackjack, KFC and prata... haha... made my best and fastest earning... 40 bucks in 15 mins :P... thereafter rushed to visit my wife's uncle, have another meal (nice and delicious home cooked food)... closed to 3.30pm, we adjourned to my mum...

Photos of 2008 Christmas... Photos of early reunion dinner 2009 at my in-laws and ping's b'day... Photos of reunion dinner 2009 at my dad's place and junhong's b'day...

members of Big Five "Gang of Marina Barrage".. i wonder what they will look like in 10 years, taking the same style of photos. Marina Barrage, situated near one end of marina south... good education spot for kids... it has a gallery on Singapore water resources... a demo on how the dam and reservoir worked when there is a flood or high tide. the view on the topmost floor (aka roof) was scenic. the skyscrapers from shenton way, Singapore flyer, esplanade (aka durian building) and the vast ocean... not to mention the soon-to-be-ready IR at marina bay (aka Sands). prepare a set of clothings for the kids next time... there are water fountains (like those at bugis junction).

these are dated photos... taken during Jinhan's (my nephew) birthday... not pictures of the birthday but rather some odd combinations. which is correct?

Above (left): Wentong and Huanjin Second row (left): Ziyi and Xinyi Last row: Zhirui close-up shots... these photos are taken during my father-in-law birthday celebration... only one is not.. can you spot it?

it has been years since my wife and i (only the 2 of us) watched a movie together due to our girls. the last time we went to the theatre watching "Kungfu Panda" were with Ziyi... i cannot remember the last movie we watched together before last Friday... the most recent movie happened last Friday "Quantum of Solace: 007". my all-time fav movie series... i think i caught all the James Bond movie series from Sean Connery to Roger Moore to the person who starred in one and only Jame Bond movie "On Her Majesty's Secret Service" " to Timolty Dalton, Pierce Brosnan and now Daniel Craig... i happened to work in a video recording company while waiting for entry to Poly and managed to 'catch' all Bond series... seeing M from young to old... all the beauties and villians (Jaws)... fanciful cars, fantastic gadgets... Sean Connery was most charismatic... Tim was the worst Bond other than Lazenby... Daniel Craig, rugged Bond... with killer secret servic...

this week is getting tiring and exciting... my wife is away again to Austria this time... leaving Sunday and coming back Saturday. my girls and i are seeking lodging at my in-law's place again... zhirui is still recovering from her runny nose and cough... she has been sick since the mooncake festival day... the tough part is to send both kids to and fro school... carrying the barangs (their bags).. and most of the time, carrying zhirui... she will practically 'roll' on the floor if i made her walk... my back will definitely hurt when i am older... i cannot imagine being a 'single' parent (for long)... kudos to single parent who brought up their kids!

ziyi just celebrated her 5th birthday. she is sensible at times and likes to read books and puzzle-liked games... she can be quite independent at times but at times throwtantrums to get attention... when she did that, my first reaction was to scold her... she saw her sister threw tantrums and got what she (zhirui) wanted... she wonders why there are 2 different sets of treatment from us... we explains to her time and again, but... she likes a hug from me... she likes me to sleep beside her... i felt that she should not be too reliant on me... when is the right time to hug her? when is the right time to let her be independent? when is the right time to tell her off? being a parent is tough... more challenging than managing my staff.

23rd Aug (a day after my trip)... another exciting event... ziyi's 5th birthday party @ explorerkids downtown... (after going to at least 4 kids' playground locations)... 2 hours of using room for cake cutting and gathering... the kids really had fun... thanks to friends and close family members for coming to this party... oh, the 'barbie-like' birthday cake from polar was great in taste and looked beautiful. after the 2 hours of 'closed' session, all day free play 'kicks in' for the kids... parents like me get to follow the kids and play the mega playground (the slides were great and exhilarating!)... haha... totally worth it since the normal days of gameplay will be SGD11 per hour per kid... my girls had 5 hours of fun... and don't want to leave... 2 days later, ziyi had another celebration at her school... a hello kitty cake... goodie bags for her friends... cake finished within 15 mins after it was cut... her frens were really good (in eating)....

today, marks the official end of my 'holiday camp' lasting almost 14 months... holiday camp = stay at in-law's place. my family was backed at Bayshore... except for my youngest daughter cos she still needs to be taken care of until Aug 1st... where off she goes... to MMI together with jie jie Ziyi. i am going to miss: - the daily veg, fruits and nuts' juice that my mother-in-law concocted; - not doing housework; - and of course, her cooking (will try to go back at least twice a week now). but back at home is really good, you have all the freedom to do things. i can play my PS3 till late, leave things a little messy, buy our fav food and binge, not having to 'fight' for the toilet early morning, don't have to pay for season parking, utilise the facilities (pool and gym)... and i think i will reach office early everyday! one month to go and my youngest will be backed with us... i wonder how things will change?!

that's not for me to remember but Ziyi (my eldest girl)... her first movie in the cinema... thanks to Nokia for bringing this event to Nokia staff and their family. funny panda... all the animals are so 'cutely' drawn... theme of the movie: nothing is accidental. a good de-stress movie... adults should watch too. Ziyi enjoyed it, laughing her way except for the fighting scenes. "yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift. that's why they call it the present", by Master Woo Kway... well said welllll saiddd.