understand your soulz

Does it really matter? The real question is: do you really need to work?  We work for money and society created the status of rich and poor. We work to keep our stomach full and that's probably our most basic purpose.  Can we still feed ourselves if we don't work? That's an equation that you need to about.  If everyone is given a plot of land to grow vegetables/plants, I think we can survive.  Do we need more knowledge? Debatable, depending on the use of knowledge.  E=MC^2 a fantastic theory by Einstein but it goes both ways. We derive atom energy but atom bomb too. see link Is bombing on Nagasaki and Hiroshima necessary to stop WWII?  Should we build nuclear plant initially when we do not know how to contain them?  Is Nuclear Bomb even allowed?  Are we creating our own DOOM?  Coming back to question. Work to live or live to work. Do we really need to work? when we knew that our lives are 'played' by some other irresponsible countries/humans....

Human beings created rules, we follow these rules. We bend those rules to improve them.  Human beings derived theories, most of us follow those theories. Very few tried to crack or rebutt them.  Human beings created religions, we believe religions can make us a better person. How many tried to question the teachings? Did the teachings change as society evolves? Did we re-write the teachings? Human beings created the most powerful weapon -> Laws to keep ourselves in place. Laws can be simply implemented if you can gather the majority.  Human beings are now trying to play GOD. We are trying to outlive our given life span, we are trying to 'preserve' our memories, we are working to dominate the Earth and Universe.  Humans are never really part of the ecosystem, whether in food chain or harmony or universe. We follow the simple logic: Rules are meant to be broken. We create CHAOS. We try to 'break' everything rules, every animal kingdom, every country, every land....

I used to roam freely in the small jungle of Punggol. I used to be able to find food easily. I have a lot of friends in that jungle. I had a home and was sure that my family would be safe. I found my wife in this jungle, we built a family. With the passing of time, the jungle was slowly reduced to nothing. Excavators, bull-dozers, cranes started appearing and tore down my homeland. My home destroyed, my friends lost, no food and shelter to take on for my family.  We had to wonder around the streets of Punggol to forage for food. We had to move from place to place to sleep like a nomad. We are just trying to survive but those homo sapiens thought that we are pose a threat and trying to attack them but in fact, they invaded my territory and eliminate most of my species.  Show some empathy, Humans! sign off: Wild Boar Lim

I am not referring to new year resolution. We should have move on with that every-year-cannot-be-achieved-resolution if you are reading this blog.  Instead, we should set 5-years target. Something far-fetched but achievable. I used to set targets to achieve at age 30, 35, 40... but till late (47 now), nothing was set since.  30 years old, income to hit SGD3k per month (simple). My income was pretty low then at young age.  35 years old, to own a million $ assets... achieved.  40 years old, liquidity of a million $. not really achieve but I believe I am liquid enough.  With bare necessity fulfilled, house and car (no loan very soon). A great family though arguments still appear. What more do I wanted?  After 40, I remembered I went into a long state of depression if you would call it. I work without motivation or doesn't even feel like working. Working aimlessly, neither happy nor sad. Day in, day out seems like groundhog days. Wasted a long period trying to ...

 I always felt that my life experiences are in phases.  Moving on from childhood friends to secondary friends to gaming friends, poly friends to army kakis and working colleagues. These friends never stick with me for long, only a limited handful, that's my life I presume. With each phase, friends come and go. I don't really have strong attachment or close relationship with most of them. Maybe to them, I appeared snobbish, cold and too intelligent to joke around. Only the close few that knew me, knew me.  I like to observe, I can be alone and does things alone. That's probably why my circle of friends are small and smaller than most people.  But have you ever wondered? Whenever your friend 'leave' you in that stage of life, someone would take over his/her place. The amount of people that you are allowed to 'hold on' to, it seems fixed. It could even be the case when you get to know a new friend, somehow you will find another 'missing'. Is it because ...