In year 2024, I will be half a century old. During 2014 when I am still 40 yo, I started doubting myself, my value, my worth to the society and to my company. I kept asking what's the purpose of working so hard, what if my kids are all grown up, what's the purpose of living, etc. Thousand and one questions popped up every day, I am not even sure if that is mid life crisis or depression. Surely suicidal is not my dictionary, that's coward way of facing what's ahead. But nothing seems to motivate me. I gotten through those 40 years fairly easily. Fast forward to 9 years more, I am still what I could have achieved at 40 years old. Nothing major has changed except higher inflation, crazier world, the 2nd wave of generations coming to the workforce, the ever increasing workload, the higher humidity and temperature, etc. War between Ukraine and Russia doesn't seem to stop, US and China too. Traditional skills or manual labor skills become obsolete but more ...
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