understand your soulz

I was on morning leave yesterday. As usual, I was waiting for the kids to wake up for our short family walk. It has been a long time when 4 of us are out for activities since Heightened Alert just lifted.  I chanced upon this meditation on guiding to meet your future self. OKayyy, since I haven't been meditating for a long while. The guide was pretty concise.  The vision at first blur becomes more vivid. The place, colour and the scene becomes clearer. I can see myself slightly aging with silver/gold rimmed specs. The mediation guided me to shake hands with my future self.  The rest of the description per picture.  I am very sure it was clearly overseas as I was in winter jacket, just couldn't point out exactly where. At first, I was thinking of Taj Mahal (some place that I really like to visit) but the structure looks different. Let's hope someday it appeared and I am revisiting this blog. 

Complex personality or contradicting personality? Lazy or smart?  I hate routine but at the same time, too lazy to think of next steps sometimes. I can clear work tasks pretty fast but many would think that I am too idle. I simply does not like to leave tasks pending. I want a slower pace in life but can I really manage the slower pace?  I might not be liked my girls who can multitasks but I believe I did it during my teenager years without the smartphone. Watching TV and studying for exams are concurrent. Luckily TV programs were not running 24 hours then. I would search the 8 Days magazine on the TV schedule,  then plan for which cartoons to watch early morning till night. Those yesterday's cartoons has evolved to today's anime. Even my wife or kids think that anime is a waste of time. I am by nature, lazy. If I have a task, I will find the fastest or easiest way to get the result. My grade may not be the best but the effort justify for it. Remembering in my poly days, ...